wenky says i’m half a guy. that’s really mean. but then… i think a few guys treat me as their guy friend leh. it’s a good thing if i treat them as friends only too. but… what if it happens to be a guy i like? then die liao… i’ll forever be his dage/xiaodi and he’ll not be any bit romantically interested, cuz to him, that would be like homosexualism. ergh.

now one of my male cg mates also says that in certain aspects, i’m like a guy! how where and what? ahhh… psychologically? emotionally? mentally? can’t be physically rite. (haha hypoC i like yr ‘term’… yr gd frd told me ah…) :S and he has the gall to suggest that i should look for a girl instead. and then he said, maybe i’m not lady-like enough, must wear wat cheongsam… 欠匾是不是! (< - prime example of me lacking gentleness, meekness, and mildness)

i think this is the reason why i keep hearing so much guy-talk around me. sheesh.

shld i take anti-testosterone? go test my serum testosterone levels? how?

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while shopping today, my mum and the saleswoman started gossiping and i slipped off to see other shops… later, my mum decided to give me a blow-by-blow account of the conversation. (warning: she’s very long-winded)

salesgirl1: your daughter huh? working liao?
ma: no la, still studying lor… i’m not so lucky yet.
salesgirl1: soon la…. you so lucky, daughter so big already… can shake leg at home…
ma: i hope soon la…
salesgirl2: auntie, you how old ah?
ma: xx (haha cannot reveal here!)
salesgirl2: really? you don’t look your age leh.
(here i shall shorten to merely - blah blah blah blah blah and all that jazz)
salesgirl2: so auntie, you guess where i’m from?
ma: you? dunno leh, u not singaporean?
salesgirl2: haha you won’t be able to guess where i’m from. you know here [salesgirl1] is from?
ma: china lor… her accent can hear…
salesgirl2: ya… actually me too, but my accent different la. not clear.
ma: really? you sound like a singaporean! you know what, my daughter, just now the one u see rite? pple say that she looks like she’s from china! maybe partly also coz of our surname and her name la…
salesgirl1: oh… is it?
salesgirl2: oh, cos she’s so fair mah!

HAIZZZZ… 　气死我了！

someone hand me some bronzer please…

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hmmm i’m suddenly seized with an urge to LEARN something else… i’m a bit half-hearted about art. going to start scenery drawing this saturday, and i feel a real ‘dearth’ of confidence.

i want to learn FRENCH! or revise SPANISH! but i think french would be more challenging. hmmm… my ITALIAN’s almost totally gone! i can read and understand but i cannot write unless i’m guided step by step armed with a dictionary and verb conjugator! *sob sob*

someone sponsor me SGD$244 for french can? i’m very broke! sigh but the next set of classes start next week… erm how? maybe tomorrow call my cousin up, perhaps can save $244 if i borrow all her materials though i still like learning in a group instead.

oooooooooooooooh and i heard the teachers at alliance française are verrrrrrry gorgeous though gay (i tell you, gays can be very charming one ok). but nevermind, eye candy also enough. *teehee*