ever since my birthday i have been feeling that i was heading for another crash… (well it explains, my last two weeks of january were mildly hypomanic…) even during the first two days of cny i was feeling kinda out of sorts, like there’s this impending feeling of doom coming upon me, despite how much i should have been enjoying the much-needed break. right now, i hardly felt i’ve had a break, i’m more emotionally traumatised than ever. and it’s just so tiring to go plodding on. and of course, the depressing movie i watched and the unforseen disappointment over the four-day break did nothing to avert my course towards disaster.
i’ve been quite bothered by a multitude of things and i’d dearly love to have someone to rant at. hehe. anyway, i’m very grateful to L for talking to me for soooo long yesterday nite… i hope you managed to keep awake during class!
sheesh i feel so emotionally drained…
i’m beginning to feel guilty about my behaviour. i feel that i’ve been unfairly demanding on certain people, unfairly judgmental and probably quite selfish. hmmm… and i’m so guilty of being lazy, not clerking enough and not being smart enough.
and i feel that i’m absolutely, totally, definitely a lousy person… i mean who am i to grumble and moan about things when almost everything is perfect in my life? when i’ve had so many good friends remembering my birthday and all those cool gifts?
haiz. weekend’s almost here. good. then i can hide at home and just be alone. hmmm or maybe i could go for a movie over the weekend. indulge myself a bit.
oooh, and i just read spacefan’s blog… she mentioned about V-day! ah! the day! hahaha… come to think of it, i’ve only had ONE real V-day… shucks. no date this year… haiz
