haiz.
i feel so stupid.
like today there was this vein, that looked pretty bouncy, but dang, how come i can’t get the blood?!?!?! then i had to poke elsewhere, and also not that much blood came out, and the stupid blood CLOTTED when i just laid the tube aside to allow the suction to continue while i put on the plaster for the ah-ma… i remember i used to be much much better at blood-taking.
haiz.
and then i saw vitiligo in the clinic today, but don’t know why… there was just this humongous MENTAL block that i couldn’t remember the word VITILIGO! and dr T looked so scandalised. omg, i just want to bury myself in a pothole. at least partially saved myself by naming some causes of vitiligo.
haiz.
and my tutorials r so uneventful, and boooorrrriiing. but then can’t blame the tutor, she really put in effort and lots of time. maybe doing short cases might be better? yet i doubt it, short cases must do with tutors who are VERY anal about examination techniques, then will really improve…
haiz.
i feel like a failure as a friend. just today, i found out that a friend had kept something that happened to her from me, even though i’d asked about it. it was rather an ok time when i asked… i don’t think she would be still extremely upset about the event by then. so i’m a bit hurt why she just didn’t tell me the truth. issit cuz i’m not ‘friend’ enough… :(
haiz.
and then also found out to my utmost horror that there’ll be TWENTY TWO freaking year threes doing electives with only SIX year fours next month! omg… like that how to learn, how to clerk and how to see all those exciting procedures? unless we do permanent night duty? seriously i don’t mind. but i think maybe my grpmates will be feeling a bit buay song that i chose such a horribly popular place to do elective… sigh. and now if i suggest perm nite duty, haha… dunno how they’ll feel…. aiyo…
sheesh. feel so bad about everything. :(
