during the spain trip, my groupmates had to put up with a solid 18 days of mania. lucky for them i wasn’t in a down mood, i might just burst out in tears and send the guys running away in the opposite direction… hahaha… how could i anyway? it’s SPAIN you know…

anyway, now i’m paying dearly for being “too happy”, it felt soooo down and quiet the first night in Sg (no one snoring this time round, or tossing so much the bed creaked) that i just crashed, and right now i’m somewhere close to my baseline sad mode.

like one of our groupmates said, a lot of people in medicine as just baseline sad. that’s just so sad…

cheered up a bit after meeting up with M and M and one more J… saw such wonderful pictures of this old town called Bruges, near to Brussels! Mike’s pics were so fantastic, it made me wanna go to Bruges!!! should get him to send me those pics…

unfortunately MX’s cam wasn’t working very well and all his pictures look kinda misted up at the edges. too bad for him. but lucky guy’s going to Japan for a 6 month long internship! WOW! and he gets paid! how come medicine don’t have something like that huh?

and while he’s away i shall show ALL his super gross videos to everyone! WENKY YOU’RE FIRST!!! hahaha… i should start charging manz…

i was just watching ‘rumour has it’ starring kevin costner and jennifer aniston (she acts as this gal who, on the surface seems to have everything going on well for her, but is just really messed up emotionally) and i felt some kind of connection. it kinda reminded me of how i felt ********** (heh not saying), anyway, gimme physical pain over emotional pain anytime.

i figure i’ll just have to deal with this baseline high stress level and emotional ‘down-ness’ at least till i’m sure i pass the MBBS next year. i should just drown all my undefinable sorrows (i dun really know why i’m sad though i know what could make me super happy, though it’s just not something i could just get like that…) within the depths of baliga, apley, clarke and fellows…