this is the longest blog hiatus i’ve ever had… only felt a bit guilty for not updating cuz i chked my blog counter referrals and discovered many pple visiting from dr sf’s blog…. oooh she linked me, thanks!
so i think i’d better haul myself from my own mess and start to blog something meaningful soon.
shall stop now, or i’ll go into hysterics about final yr woes and the my new-found phobia of CGH. that place just makes me feel depressed, lost, lonely, frightened, unmotivated and ultra-fatigued. i actually satisfied the 4 out of 11 DSM-IV criteria for depression. haha… only it was for only like a wk or so.
currently having many cycles of cyclothymic disorder. feels horrible. it’s like everyday i wake up and spend 10min wondering what mood i shall be in for the day. it’s sooooo horrible that i dread everything. just wanna blast my brains out and not think or feel.
and also, for the FIRST time in my med-school life, i wondered…. what am i doing in medicine and what did i think i could do for other people as a doctor???
i hope i regain my passion for medicine in my next posting. -_-
ARGH. STOP THINKING AND QUESTIONING YOURSELF! JUST LIVE! LIVE FOR THE SAKE OF LIVING!
